thank u for everything u have done . i love u forever ....
juz now 230 i went to bathe .... i wonder izzit cuz i didnt accept the fact so i wasnt so sad but the truth was it sank down in mi i cant do anything now .... every single poke will make mi rmb the time i reach hospital . the doctor said he is dead we went to see him perhaps if i shouted for him longer he will wake up agn my father i wan him he is my father MY !! he left . no one will be there for mi ... anymore . no one will understand mi no one will allow mi to do wat i wan no one will think the same as i do no one will tell mi tat my thinking could change and share with mi theirs no one will ........ typing the thing , i know i mustnt show how sad i am . i know i had to be brave but im sorry i realli know i realli wan u to feel at ease but i cant control . the hands which are big and rough wont help mi out from bed wont hold mi when i need them wont be there whn i nid sense of security wont be there for mi when i have headache wont be there for mi when i have muscle ache the chest of my father wont be there for mi to lie on wont be there anymore when i am realli sad wont be there when i am undecisive wont be there when i juz wan a hug its gone ...... forever gone ...... i know i had to be strong but i juz couldnt wat can i do i must nt let the ones living worry but ..... i realli cant i know i had to continue looking at grass which my father recommands i know i had to continue waking up early on sunday mornings for jogg i know i had to realli do well and make him proud i know i know i will i will but when im okay , its when i dont think his dead but every single thing reminds mi of him everything i loved him every1 did i dont know y did he left so suddenly i should be happie tat he didnt suffer but i couldnt i hope i can but looking at him . i found out these few days i nvr realli tok to him YTD ! i barely tok to him i tot i will see him today cuz i tot he will wake mi in the morning how . how . how i am lost ? i must help my mother and brother but tears wont stop flowing i know im strong and i had to be but all the strength in me was gone with him he was the source of strength he was the pillar for us all he is the one who makes mi laugh he is the one who will know about mi he is the one who be very very good to mi he is the one who nvr fails to do smth in good quality he is the one he is the one . my father responsible . smart . filial . understanding . funnie he could be the most funnie father on Earth he is realli good at his job as a carpenter he is realli realli smart in all the areas he is my father my one and onli father now today . i lost him at a age of 14 i lost him streaming .... he said i would chiong yes i realli would he consoles mi when i do badly for exam but now how ? my mother . aunties uncles brother sister ME
how ! how ! how father i promise u i realli will be okay i dont wan u to worry but let mi cry to my heart's contend for now
the contract we signed for u to drive mi to skl the agreement we have of getting 5~ aces the policy of mi waking up the meow meow the 5 cents everything . thank u even my instruments haha ! lo tui kor tui all u make de u given mi the best memories the ones better than any1 else . thank you i dont blame u . i hope u will be good but please gib mother strength give them strength i know i will survive , it is juz a matter of time and tide
until now , i still cant accept the fact i donnno how izzit like to live without him i will try i will do my best but ill nvr forget u the sound of my live the pillar in mi and the lorri which is my baby the leaves which u wan my eyes to be good u mean everything to mi thank you and i love you
17th oct. , previous sun, he juz allowed mi to go under the rain ! cuz aft exam im too stress he nvr fails to understand mi he allows mi to do the things i wan when he thinks is appropriate
ytd de ytd 21 oct cuz of haze i went my auntie house thn too bad for my eyes thn in the end my eyes cant stand it keep pain thn 22oct my father brought back a spectacles it is for work one keke but i can wear HOOHOO! =] he so good right cuz is my father hurhur
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